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god im so fuckking pissed, i know that i never post shit. like i still dont even understand this whoe thing but god damn im so pissed. so i was out with my exboyfriend that i was with for over 6months and me being the fucking nosy cunt that i am. decided to go threw his textmessages. AND, LUCKY ME found texts to this girl KIRSTEN saying shit like "i just want to hold you and kiss your soft lips"!?!?! wheskhgdsjghdjh wtfuckkinghell!
and he is with me, like holding my hand and kissing my nose! I BET SHE IS MIGHTY FUCKING SKINNY THAT FUCKING SLUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. and who the hell does he think he is, i know we're not together
but were like practically are god damit. ughughuhguhguhguhgh i just want to be in control of something, obvisouly there is nothing to control other than what i look like


needd support more than ever :( im sch a mess. 

please talk, im feeling horrible :/.

Is how i am feeling this morning :b, and mostly everytime i reolize how fat i am. 
Today is the day, i finally take control ^_^ we've all said it in the past. i know i have, ten thousand times. 
but this is different, i know it. 


Possibly going to austin, today.
so it could take my mind off of everything. especially food.
but i made myself hate food so much last night. its not even worth it.
like im discusted by it. and i hope THAT feeling sticks.

good luck to everyone starting and continuing today! :) you'll do great
HAPPY ST.PATTYSDAY



ps. does anyone wear those red braclets to where if you see someone else wearing it
to point to it, and if they return the same gusture, then they are proana too??? i kinda want to (:

HI first entry excitment is kicked in right now(:
so, im Savannah hand in hand with my proana commitment. 
today was horrible, im gross. Jesus christ, tomorrow will reveal 
my will-power and so will the many days that follow
:/
luck luck luck